Of all the years in my life, be it when I was 6,10,12,14....all the years before I've never done these many things in such a short amount of time. I just feel kinda released, like "oh my god why was I hiding from the world like that?" Truly for the past 3 years I've been the exact opposite of shy, but I never got out either. I had lots of friends, but didn't hang out with them. Now I feel like I'm not taking anything for granted. I go out just about every single day, I've been doing everything I ever really wanted to without worrying soo much about the consequences. Smoking, drinking, ditching, sneaking off campus, all this shit I used to be scared of doing 'cos I thought I might get caught. Doesn't matter anymore. I don't give a shit. And I enjoy it to the fullest. Maybe growing up isn't going to be soo scary. I have my girls with me, I have experience. I have people who love me and who worry about me. I have people to love again, I have people to care about and call when shit gets hard. I'm not the ugly duckling anymore, and I'm happy again, finally. My scars continue to fade, and I begin to forget how it feels to live on an empty stomach. I have places to go, and people who want to go with me. We all have a place, and I think for now I've found my place, my niche. Maybe now and then I'll miss how it used to be, when I didn't have that many worries, and I will miss all the things I've lost. I will never forget what life used to be, and never forget the people I used to love. They will remain in my heart and clutter my shelves until the end of time. But they won't bother my mind, I'm ok. I dare you to move like today never happened before