Went x-mas shopping, boy did it suck. I bought presents, which is a good thing, I mailed Candace's letter, and dropped off my camera (woot!) but the mall was crowded, and my mom got on my nerves. I got Erica the Chingy cd, I don't even remember if she likes him, I'm keeping the reciet cuz I sure as hell do not want that stupid rap cd. Fuck that shit. I bought Lillie a purse, it's sooo cool, I want it, probably more then she'll like it. It's black and pink striped, and has a star. Grr. I got mom a Sun-Ripened Rasberry gift basket from Bath and Body Works...like she deserves anything more, my dad bought her a $60 perfume, that smells like crap, and was gonna buy her another, and also get her an engraved heart thing. She's not fucking worth it, I'm not fucking worth it, he needs to stop being nice to her cuz she's such a bitch to him. But..it gets better. We ate, and she had me show her where the nail place was. I can't get acrylics, cuz of guitar, so she goes "well then forget about her" and walks on inside, seriously that pissed me off. She said it was a present to herself, like she fucking needs that, everything is a present to herself, and she always tells me to save up my money. Stupid bitch. If I only get $20 a week, it'd take me months to get the things I want, it takes her 10 minutes, and she complains that my dad spends too much money. Fuck, she's always buying shit she doesn't use, like plates....I hope when she dies all these stupid plates cost a shit-load, and I'll get fucking rich off them, cuz I'm not keeping these fucking stupid colorful plates around, I'm not gonna be like her. We got home and my dad asked what's wrong with me again, he says he's getting annoyed at how often I use "I'm tired" as an excuse. He said it's hard to be nice when I'm not happy,and I really wanted to tell him that I'm happy, just not when their around. Fuck. At school Bry was saying she's never gonna leave this town, I really don't understand that. But she doesn't have my life, and vice versa. And they all think I'm crazy.. you had your chance. theres no reason to cry about it now. you changed your plans. hope thats still more important to you now. no I don't wanna talk. you better know that this is all your fault On a happier note, Mest and Fall Out Boy are coming to the Theater, at the end of January.