No one will ever bring me down the same way I can bring myself down.... I almost feel regret. Regret that I ruin my life, knowing fully well what I'm doing. It's begun to sink in, that I inhibit myself from loving people the way they deserve. But at the same time, I give chances to all the people who don't deserve them. I ruined it. ruined ruined ruined ruined. and He doesn't even know it yet. It's ruined in my mind. ....and I thought I could change. But I can't. I feel sick.