It's been a morbid month. Full of all kinds of bullshit and unhappiness. It'd be so nice to just skip right over this past month. I was talking to Matt about how bad it'd been, and he said to look on the bright side..next month could only be good. I don't see that happening, but either way I'd rather not be spending my life having good month, bad month, so on and so forth. Janell isn't making it any better, she's doing that thing where if it doesn't have to do with her or something she's into she just doesn't care. I have to listen to her talk about her stupid fucking friends, and her 'horrible' life, and how she's always writing poems about suicide. How the fuck does somebody write a poem about something they don't know about? If anything I should be the one writing them, at least I've been affected by it. But no, she wants to be like every other 'punk rock' kid, angsty and depressed. I'm not stupid, I can see it, and it's such a load of fucking bullshit. Why am I supposed to listen to her, and care about all her problems, when she NEVER does that for me. I mean, I do have people who listen to me, but the fact that she never does really gets to me. Jordan did it to, and Dannell occasionally does. I'm almost to the point where I'm sick of having friends, cuz all they do is fuck me over.