...so I gave up but somehow found another way of looking at things. the fading star that destroyed us all After school yesterday I had rehersal for orchestra. complete waste of time Of course I was only there for the pizza. We have a concert 2morrow. $7 which I'm surprised anyone is going to. Then I went over Meagans (moldingapple). She tried to teach me some of her moves but she's far to advance and I'm too stiff. Had a long talk with my mom today...i hate how she always manages to make me breakdown crying and spill everything. rush of blood to the head I guess this is what happens when you have no one else to talk to. dont ignore my confession I've decided to start doing things I love again and to actually try. I'm dropping the mess with Roger and Jaime. People can think what they want since the truth wont come out. Jaime hates me cause i ruined his ego when I lead him to believe I'd give it up. I didn't mean to get in so deep...i just wanted to show him I wasn't only a piece of ass for him to take advantage of. And somehow I got some people caught up in it but some ppl got themselves in it and told false crap . Now that its all over (for me atleast) everything is clear and I'm not going to waste my time thinking about something now so meaningless. beautiful disaster We are taking custody of Brittany now. I'm excited and scared but I hope things will work out. I really don't know how I'm going to cope with another change.