so this is what it comes to... how long have you been hiding? I thought we were all you needed, but I guess now your depending upon you invigorating life suckers to get you through your problems. [...i dont want to talk about it] so anyway I share my life with a controlling, manipulating ...yet cute 4 year old who watches The Lion King 2 times a day just to see the birdy get slapped and sing along with evil Scar. And then my little cuz beats the shit outta my brother. I'm constantly babysitting and really have no life of my own anymore. I used to use the phone all day when I lived a simple life and now I don't have any time to myself untill late at night, to even dial a digit. I just wanna walk away. There's too much to do in one day for me, and my schedule is warped. Save Me Summer school is finally alot better...Nacho is cool to hang out with, but I feel like I have to be a dork around him (as stupid as I sound) because all he likes to talk about is going to the library afterschool. And he actually lives without music. I don't know how he does it. So now that I have Ryan and Danny to talk to I don't feel so out of place. With them I could talk about anything without feeling like a camera is placed in my face and I have to say all the right things or I'll look bad. I'm happy I'm just not happy Tomorrow I'm babysitting the neighbors child I AM A MOTHER In a dream I hear the phone And I remember someone’s home Waiting for you Don’t remember what I say Don’t know why I feel this way Do you