there's a feeling that comes over you, when you know that things have changed forever. i called off work yesterday. i would've been too insecure to meet someone new every 3 minutes with my mouth lobsided. i was thinking about getting a new job...completely starting over, but that would let him win. And I won't let him. He wants the cold shivers down my spine, and the desperate cry of being held down by his suave charisma. I don't sit around and think about what would have, should have, or could have been. I sit around and think about how to keep my pride in my heart, and with my head up I am no longer at the edge of the world.