I've found another attachment...another temporary drug...possibly another regret. This time its here for real, but i dont expect much. I know its desires... ephermal inside me. The phone call is unanswered and I'm on stand by. I'm thinking of ways around it...but I know its inevitable. Do I even care anymore? I can't help but to give in. i was reallie bored today... i wish I couldve been there but whats with there is unseen through me i would just be another blank face in the photograph happy birthday :balloons pop: I got a lecture today. spare me...my parentals act as if I dont see that I'm not really here.I've been in my own world lately and I use music as a way to cope with things. Even though explainations are lost I'm still happy. Its just today I realized 'things' that shouldnt have been obscure and things that I that kept quiet in the back of my head when I could've sworn I was strong enough to say them out loud. my pathetic highlight of today: some snotty guy was sleeping in strings and when he woke up he fell to the ground shaking. Facial expressions around the room were more than my stomach could handle. When this kid came back to this world...he looked like he had just came outta the jungle. His hair was all dishelved and he had blood coming from his face and red slashes around his neck and cheeks... omg and then he said "That was awsum"... i think that was his way for handling the embarrasment, because it was only awsum from "our" view. I cant even imagine being in his position. pssh and i thought my day yesterday was the himilation to conceal.