so I'm siting here reading people's diaries, that go to my school...who I have only seen, but never talked to. As seniors, I think we are all scared for our lives. its hard not to worry about what we are going to do after highschool if we'll be successful... if we'll make our parents proud if we'll measure up to our own standards and maybe at times we all wish someone would just tell us the right way to go. I don't want to fuck up again As much as I talk about how much I am just ready to be 18 already, I have to admit independance is becoming suffused with 3 million signs of hope and I am petrified I have been really stressed lately. Between guys, friends, work, a million tests, and a circle of constant blabber from the expectations of my mom, at times I feel effeted. I will have moments at school were i am actually quiet (fancy that) b/c its dejecting when I dwell on some thoughts. But I guess what gets me through is just taking each day at time, and always pushing myself not to stagger. -10:55 i need sleep.