my experienes are making me bitter. BUT i can't help but like the way i am better now... i am learning how to love myself and stand up for myself. The himilation only made me stronger. i am supposed to go out with antione today. we were gonna go to a movie and to a club, but my face is completely swollen from getting my wisdom teeth out. And I don't want anyone to see me looking like a fat kid with cake stuck in my mouth. bleh. I'm hungry and I can't eat. well i don't plan on being with anyone for awhile. I just need time to myself. I think I'm forming some fucked up disorder with as many guys as I've dated this year. So maybe I got what I deserved with Kevin...but I know it will never fucking happen again. not to me...