this month, i have grown up more than I ever have within a year. 2 weeks ago, i got in a fight with my dad. Since then, i sprained my ankle, moved out, and met an amazing guy. Living with meagan, has been different. It's still awkward for me sometimes, but her mom trys her hardest to make me feel as comfortable as possible. She treats me, sorta like one of her kids. This has made me realize what my cousin has been going through; living in our house. I hadn't ever stopped talking to my parents. I still came over. On Sunday, I had a talk with them, and now they are starting to see me as the 17 year old girl that I am. I was actually e ven surprised that I admitted my faults, b/c sometimes I have so much pride, that I deny who I really am. Tonight, My dad asked me for a hug and kissed my neck. That is a kodak moment, b/c my dad hasn't shown affection towards me, since i grew tits and was too big to sit on his lap anymore. Leaving, made our family stronger I think. They learned to let go, and I realized what I was doing to them, and myself. I thought being that way, would make them see that I was hurting, and I used myself as a threat to them. It was nice sleeping in my own bed yesterday, and taking a shower in my shower, and raiding the fridge even when i wasn't hungry. I am grateful to have Meagan as a friend, and right now a roomie... I am not sure when I'm moving back. School is hectic for me right now. I feel like I'm in college, only I see too many 14 year olds. It's nice right now, being able to share my happiness with my mom. It's never been that way. She loves my boyfriend, and for once she's trusting me alone with him. I think she sees that Kevin cares about me. Kevin inspires me every way. With God, with love, with life...and he made me feel like I could have another chance. He has been here for me since day ONE. And he will tell me if he thinks I am making a mistake. A friend talked to me about who I've been these past 2 months. It's funny b/c I thought she stopped caring about me b/c she was too into her boyfriend. Now I see that sometimes its the people who care about you, that can't stick around to see you destroy yourself, even when you need them most. I really do appreciate every single person in my life. Well this is the first Valentine's Day I ever spent with anyone. And I got my first hickey rofl kinda sad but o well. I got kevin a digital camera, chocolates, and a card for v-day. We are celebrating it on Friday tho.