kevin makes me weak. when i'm with him, i am at my happiest but if he is every upset i am at my worse i never was a 'cry baby' until i met him i think i am so afraid of losing him. there are too many ups and downs with us. i came home, and i was exhausted again. i collapsed on my bed. i haven't gotten sleep in awhile... maybe its affected my brain and the things i say. all i do is worry about him and us, and what will be next. i think i we are going to have to take a break from each other...no matter what i will always love him tho. adrian wanted to get wit me today. and kevin gave him the phone cause he said he's got a girlfriend so he trusted me. i talked to adrian for a 1/2 an hour, and kevin got mad. but most of the time i was talking about how stupid adrian is, and adrian basically wants to make me more ghetto and shyt. i love who i am. i don't need to act like I'm a gangsta and tough as shit, just to consider myself black. i'm me. that's beautiful. ANYWAYS, i don't know what kevin is thinking. i resorted to talking to his bff keith. he called me back at 11:00 or so, but by then kevin and i had already talked. kevin is going thru alot of shyt, so i guess that is part of the reason he is mad at me and is overreacting. i don't ever want to give up on kevin, but i don't know where we are going. i talked to byron tonight, he is doing fine. i love talking to him, because he's so hilarious and we can always go back to the past and make fun of how gay we were. Byron has a girlfriend, and he treats her good. i'm happy for him. well today wasn't that gr8. because too many people talk, and i understand they care about me, but its like get your sources straight. iight i'm too clean and do homework