life is beautiful... and i can't believe the way i keep throwing it all away. i'm almost twenty and already i see my youth slipping away. i always feel like i'm running out of time, but my priorities are atleast RIGHT WHERE THEY SHOULD BE. being a waitress is one big stage act. i have to get better at memorizing my lines and multi-tasking. its kind of like rubbing your stomach with one hand while trying to pat your head with other. i was never one of those kids who could do that. don't get me wrong though...i'm not slow. infact, i catch on really fast. i love the new job...so far anyways. the biggest argument shawn and i have is, who loves who more. he is an amazing boyfriend...and an even better friend. he's pretty much the nicest person you'll ever meet. shawn has taught me alot, and i'll always love him for it. i love him with all of me.