I am on big ass idiot!!!!!! argh! so mad at myself. Well here let me tell you why... i am on hell of an idiot because.... well here let me tell u the story. BB was suppose to call me last night at 5:30.... right... well.... i have lets say about 3 and half hours to think. Let me tell you i didnt think about the joys of life, but about BB. Bad things about BB. Like what if he didnt like love me as much as i love him... what if he wouldnt sacrifice as much as i would. and what if he didnt want to be w/ me as much as i want to be w/ him? these are all very hard questions and they suck. Well anyways... im an idiot because i gave him a note saying all this stupid shit... after... let emphisize. AFTER he gave me a hug... and seemed to like me... what if he dumps me?? i wouldnt be able to take it... oh god.... hopefully he doesnt cuz hopefully he does love me as much as i love him. hopefully he would sacrifice for me as much as i would for him. and hopefully he wants to be with my as much as i want to be w. him....