It's been a month since I've written, as a friend reminded me. (Thanks Carrie :] )

And in this month, a lot has changed.

The anniversary of Gary's death happened during this month, and he was remembered dearly. All the memories of him resurfaced at once, which was good and bad at the same time. Good because I knew I wasn't forgetting him, and bad because it hurt to know that those memories were final and no new memories would be made.

Other things that changed were things concerning boys.

One was Adam.-

At the beginning of the month, I refused to have a conversation with Adam. This was because I was fed up with waiting for him. At that point, I just wanted to stop everything that had to do with him, because it was doing more harm than good. I was very successful until we literally ran into each other a couple of weeks after I started cutting him out of my life. Then during Spirit week, we both attended school events and we started talking. But I was determined to leave it in terms of friends. BUT OBVIOUSLY that failed. After Tuesday, we were officially in a relationship. But I don't know how I feel about it. It's not exciting, it's not anything new. It's just there. I feel like we waited too long, and this is basically pointless. But that might be because of the other boy. :/

Two was Hammy:

He was the one that convinced me to finally move on from Adam. Something that I truly wanted to do, and something that I did very well for a bit. But then I started liking him a lot more. At times it didn't seem like I had at chance, but at others it did. Then he'd walk around holding hands with someone else. So I admit it, I was incredibly confused, but it didn't matter. He's just a really sweet guy, and I just wanted to be a good girl. I just wanted or want to show him that there are some women out there that aren't as selfish as his ex-girlfriend. I wanted to show him that not everyone takes advantage of him. But I do realize that he's in the same (er... almost) position I was with Adam. Which is a very complicated situation. VERY complicated.

Other than that, everything has stayed the same. School's still going on, but stress has built up. BUT, I do have something to look forward to. Monday there's going to be a Halloween Party, which is greatly needed at this point because everyone (I presume) is stressed and we just need to hang out. And what better way to de-stress, than a party! :D Anyway, I won't be a stranger on my own blog anymore, that's a promise.