I began reading the sequel to Star Girl a couple of days ago, and I've began to think of it a lot. Relating it to my every day.

I begin by redefining myself. Although, I have no idea where to begin. I've never fully defined myself entirely. I don't think anyone else has either. I continuously change. My attitude, my speech, the way I walk, the way I think. How can I define the undefinable? Is that my definition? Am I really the girl that can't seem to let others or herself define her/herself? Hmm, well it's an odd question indeed. I know I change constantly, and I like it. I've said to myself that I like change and I've convinced myself of it. But is that really true? Or am I just so used to the change that I've become habituated to it? And with that notion in my head... do I ever truly lose myself? Hah. Probably I think. Like right now. I'm no where near to what I want to be or who I was. I've lost what ever path I was on and I've started a new one. Although I'm really not fond of it. Everything just seems so much harder and so langweilig (boring). In any case. I can't give up. Not entirely for me, but for my parents, my boyfriend, or my friends (or maybe lack of friends?). Hmm. It seems and feels like I've never really lived my life for me. But for others. But wait! Maybe that is my definition! I'm me, but not really me... I'm me for others. That probably makes no sense. But then again. I never do.

Anyways, as an actual update. I've been dating Kevin for a month and some change of days. We're extremely happy with each other and I've really opened up to him. A completely foreign idea for me. But it's good. And Maleeha and I just keep getting closer. It's pretty insane once you think about it. But I honestly do not mind. We've taken a lot of pictures and she and I just laugh when ever we're together. Farrell and I began talking as well. I don't think we'll ever be as close of a friends, but hey.. things might change... or they might not. Oh well... Life goes on.