It's a hard knock life for me.

Life's not that hard. Or it doesn't seem that way. Just very confusing at the moment. Loads of ups and downs. Although more downs than ups lately. But anyway, it's just been dull. Nothing has actually come together, it just gets really close and breaks away at a possible sign of touching and becoming something. Which reminds me a lot of.. well.. me. Heh. I do believe that I'm a scaredy cat who cannot hold on to what she wants because in someway she believes that it is wrong for her to be happy. So maybe I'm the one messing everything up? Maybe.