Life's so tricky.

You get what you wanted for so long, when you don't desire it as much. But I mean, you still have it, so you're not complaining. Then you want something else, life lets you have a taste of it, but never really tells you whether you have it or not. Then you don't know what to choose. If you keep what you have but don't desire you're not left empty handed, but empty hearted. If you choose you're other option, you might be left empty handed and empty hearted. So which to choose? Obviously the one that you have only one thing to lose, right? Not right. Cause let's go back to that option and put more details. With what you have, you're not happy, but you're not sad. Nothing's changed, other than the fact that you're not alone. Also, prior to now, this option hurt you more than once, or twice. He enjoyed confusing you because you'd never get to know him or figure him out. While the other option is quite amazing. He's nice and won't fuck you over. But will you? And on top of that, you don't even know if anything will happen or it'll mean anything.

God damn these options.