My brother is going off to college, and the one I like is crazy for another girl How stupid am I? I'm supposed to be happy for both of them, but I'm not. I'm scared to let my brother go because then I'll be the only one that will be able to defend my dad and I from my mother. He's four years older but he seems like he's still my brother.. the one that was twelve. Gah, I'm going to miss him.. and I'm going to cry if I continue to write about him. Gah, he's my hero. And now to the boy I like. He knows I'm head over heels inlove with him, but he likes someone else. So what do I do to cope with it? Ignore him... look at him longingly and when he turns to look at me.. I scowl and look away. I mean, seriously. And then I think he knows something is up because when he said goodbye, he had this tone of voice.. it was like woah. But I responded in a cold sort of way. I don't know, if I'm nice he'll be nice back and then I'll be more inlove with him. But if I ignore him, he'll be hurt and so will I. Why is this hard? Gah, does anyone have advice? It would honestly be helpful.