Everything is different. Sex changes everything. I'm not friends with her anymore. And I'm still hung up on him. I know I shouldn't be. Everyone is mad at me because I am. But what can I do? Seriously. I'm sick of feeling so lonely and worthless though. I'm just tired of trailing around waiting to see what happens. If he asks me out again, I'm tempted to just deny it. Why do I have to wait until HE makes up his mind? I'm not the one who fucked his bestfriend. Seriously. It's his fault I lost her friendship. Actually, it isn't. But he's the cause of it. So I say, fuck him. And fuck her. I can do better. I deserve better. Right? I guess not.