Is it better to be quiet and lock things up, or just explode and just let the water flow?

I really don't know anymore. I'm looking for outlets because I cannot, I repeat CANNOT, keep it inside. I need to talk about it. I really do. But no one listens or wants to understand.

Any guy friend just looks at me and says, you just haven't had good "sex".

Any girl friend just looks and judges, or just wants to get off the topic.

And I'm not dissing my friends. I'm definitely not. Just dammit. I need someone I could just be honest with. I don't want to hold back anymore. Its not just feelings, its thoughts. Most of all its thoughts. I want to know that its okay that I'm like this. Actually, I want to know if I am. God, I think I'm right. But FUCK would that turn everything around.

I'd use this to let everything go; but as much as I'd like to say feedback is unnecesary, it is. Fucking AAAAAAA.

Rant done. Back to the internal struggle.