New Goals and Ideals I just got back from church. At first I wasn't getting out of it until I got to Youth Group. We had just talked about how we're supposed to get to heaven, and well this boy spoke up. He made so much sense and I felt like I agreed and such. A calmness came over me and yeah. But that's not where it ended! We went for adoration and we were supposed to sit there and pray or try to speak to the Lord, then a man started playing the guitar and singing. I felt tears in my eyes and I let them go. Then, I realized why I didn't accept Christianity or any other Religion for that matter. I have a fear of dependency. When ever some one asks me to help, I deny the offer. Hm, why? I don't know. But I want to change, I'm done with this fear or phobia or what ever you want to call it! I don't want it to rule my life. I want to be able to count on someone other than myself. Because I'm sure someone out there is willing to help me like I help countless others :D