Everything's different. All I wanted has been in front of me, but I continue to turn away. I want a relationship with a boy that will love me from my happy days, to my sad days, to my angry days. I want a boy that my parents will be proud me for. But sometimes I think that I'll never find him. I have chances to find him, but something always makes me hesitate. Hesitation makes me re-think the situation and turn away. I know it's not good that I'm not taking risks, but.. I've been hurt far too much. Things are also frustrating. I worry my ass about you, and you talk to every one else but me. Everything comes before me. I'm the one asking everyone where you are, but you don't care. Why should I? Every one goes through what your going through, every one gets up. You're just wallowing and I'm quite sick of it. I'm quite sick of caring so much. I'm just sick of all of this.