Past few nights [Since Sunday] I've had no sleep. I love him. I know that, but he hurts me so much. It's crazy. Yes, Brandon and I continue to go out, but it's not the same anymore. I don't see any love coming from him. Although I know I enough love for the both of us, but its not right. It's like I'm nothing to him. He doesn't care. Today he wasn't at school. Something about a doctor's appointment, and to tell you the truth. I don't think I believe him. Friday, he's supposed to come over. Ride the bus home with me, but no. That's not going to happen. I'm trying everything to stay with him, but people have noticed that I'm not the same. I'm not happy anymore. But fuck I love him! Ugh, I don't know. I'm in a complicated situation :/