yeah so i realized that none of these entries have been all that happy, but w/e... if youre looking for something happy...i'll warn you now, go elsewhere... so i figured out that no matter how hard i try... all my attempts have been, are, and will be futile... i promise you this. Generally when someone says that they feel the same way and i cant blame just them (even if it is their doing) it generally means we both work toward fixing it... but what can i do if i do my part but the opposing (and i use that term lightly) party doesnt even have some time to talk ever, let alone fix their side of it?? eh well... i dont know what else i can possibly do... well obviously you dont think ive done much, everytime i attempt it, you somehow manage to mess it up or not get that im trying at all... people you have no idea how close i am to giving up.. i think closer than ever before.... time to read some house of the spirits (its actually a good book so far, so what if im only on page 12?) ~me