i had an interesting day today....actually today sucked. Woke up and went to parker's to study for the SAT....9:15 instead of 7:15 (bc im nice lol). We had an interesting conversation while he was making breakfast.... never really finished it, kinda trailed into nothingness...which is basically why i didnt want to bring it up but w/e. Anyway, I wondered if i was being stupid or if i had valid reason to be upset, and i asked some people, and they said my reactions are ok for this thing. O and parker if you read this, which i doubt, but i dont hate you, you know that. anyway...i just feel like no one tells me anything anymore. Like everytime i find out something, either i overhear it, or people ask me and then i need to go find out bc they wont tell, or i jsut dont know period. I wonder why that is. And another thing i hate is that everyone tells me i have a big mouth and cant keep a secret. This world has no idea how many secrets ive kept. Im sorry if you feel that way. O well, i feel like i give too much of myself to people who just dont care. Or only "care" when they need something. Im not targeting any specific people out there. No wait, yes i am...but its more than one person. Anyway no point in writing about it here if i want anyone to read it.... bc no one who should read it actually does. O and prom...dont think im going. I dont have a dress nor do i have a date.... and biggest of all.... no $$. so that solves that. o well im sure im not missing much. well now im tired. id also like to point out that the favorite person of the day is marissa bc shes cool and made me feel better today! and sheida...you are my favorite person ever too because you make me feel better too. I hate those people who think they know me so well... because they claim they know me but cant even tell when im upset or peeved. Either that or they can but just choose not to do anything about it, and if thats the case then i shouldnt be friends with them. But i am, and always will be because i love them. And cant not love them. Ok thats it. Nish