today was one of my weak days. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me, and why i am this way. none of you get it. i know that. im completely alone on this one and only one person knows how to make things better. but where is that person now? things just never will end up that way, will it? still crying. i think i need to take a long long walk. oh gosh, here i go again. and i still havent gone to ikea :( why cant everything just be the way it used to be?