ok, so this new(ish) hindi song... its my new theme song to life. fyi. i love that language. it's so expressive. yesterday i went out to breakfast with stephen. and we chatted. it was good. not gonna lie *mainly because i can't* i feel much better now...ish. things on the prom front are looking up. not freaking out about things, and going dress shopping this weekend. so my parents and i really duked it out today. it was kinda scary. and i dont know how to handle things...i dont know anything EXCEPT that i need to regain control of my life. Everything was spiralling, and i cant have that, now can i? i got stuck in the dumpster today. not IN it, but inside the gate that houses it. it was sad and scary. thank god that one girl came along. or else i might still be there! im getting better at this, i really am. ok everything is changing. all at once. let's hope i can actually handle this. the past few days have made me see that maybe i really can't...what a scary thought. but i have all you guys, don't i? DC in a few days, SOOOO excited, like you have no idea. none whatsoever. i so wish i could take you all with me. well maybe not all of you, only some. and finally, sorry if i've been kinda weird over the past week. a lot going on, and im just like that. so yeah, apparently i was weird to a lot of people. at least 4 or 5. so yeah...sorry. and ok, really finally...I talked to nikhil tues morning online on yahoo msngr. for any/all of you who dont know, nikhil is my cousin in india who works in FILMS! i absolutely adore him because i can really talk to him. its so good. and just made my day :) and you thought i'd forget: it's funny because everything i want is right in front of me, it just took something to make me see it. wow. im an idiot. i love you nish its just so good knowing you're there. if only i knew who you are.