firstly...one month until im 17! YAY go me! ok now then...today was not fun basically for a few reasons...and im saying now that if you read them then dont complain about them. so here goes: a) i hate when in confidence i say somehting to someone about thinking that someone else may be feeling a certain way towards me and i say DONT SAY ANYTHING. then i get told...why would you think i felt this way towards you? not at all..... but so and so said that you thought i was peeved...did we not remember how i said DONT SAY ANYTHING?? gee thanks a billion. b) im here for about 2 people and them only... ok maybe 3 or 4. But i devote my time to trying to help people. If you are one of those people who i drop things for, then this is for you to listen/read. Im sorry if you are frustrated/stressed/angry/emotional....but i am not a punching bag to release all your pissiness on. If somethings wrong and you need some help or just a shoulder to cry (or whine) on, then i am here for you 100%. but if you dont tell me whats bothering you i CANNOT help you. i even knwo something's wrong but if i ask that gives you no right to bite my head off. Frankly...to some of you...when it comes down to it, no one gives a damn about anyone but themselves, you included. and im not saying that im any mother teresa (love her) but all im saying is that there are a few of you out there who i do put before myself. So if im the person who cares the most about you (if you dont knwo it then get a clue) do not abuse that...because i can not understand why when all i freakin do is say hi, i get an "ugh what?" or a nothing at all. Im sorry if you are all stressed or whatever, but i hate it when people think that they can feel fuckin free to take out their anger and frustration at me. So bottom line: dont do it, or youll lose the people who care about you most. and you probably wont even knwo it until youve lost them. so stop spilling your wrath in my face, i dont need it. And apparently talking to you wouldnt help because all i have to do is show my face and you get grumpy. c) too much is changing too fast...i know change isnt necessarily bad, but i cant deal with it this fast. i dont know what the fuck happened this year but it has sucked sooo much. i cant remember ever feeling crappier than this year... ok i think thats it for now... tayles is stressing over summer stuff, i got my fall work hours... holy shit its a lot but that means mucho $$. I also want to say thanks to diego for being there at lunch when i came busting into the spanish room and needed that little talk we had. Diego...thank you for that and i love you! Ok well time for me to depart... PADRES leave on THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!! Nish