well today was ok... much much better than yesterday.... wayyy less tears. like gallons less. anyway you.... id never give up.. you know this.. and im sorry if you thought i would, but i mean im frustrated at this whole situation but give up... noooo! dont even know if you'll read this but its worth a shot... so yeah if you do... dont think that.... it wont happen! too much love! in other news... life at home: sucked again this morning, but after school it was considerably better. tennis was fun with jeff today... lol he makes fun of me for the online diary and told me to write in here abt tennis... not that he reads it but for jeff ill write in exactly what we discussed. Diary, today i hit the best serve i ever have.... it kicked ass. And Jeff's the best. LOL ok that was what we talked about... :) Ok heres where some of the bitterness of the bittersweetness comes in: to all my friends who are fighting, and there are quite a few of you... i love you all and im sorry im not taking sides, but i dont wanna get in the middle. I know you will all get through this alive... and as Berens (i love her!) says to me just about everyday, "This too shall pass" !! I love you all and i want to tell everyone who has been around for me in the last couple weeks, which have been hell. And sorry for being so freakin full of emotion lately... i know ive been a pain!