So, I'm back. And I'm 18 now. Go me. Dubai was amazing. I've never seen any place like it, it's great. I saw the new Shahrukh movie when I was there...so great. Despite the mustache. DC was great. Granted, I didn't go on campus. But I did spend two weeks with the cutest almost-four year old ever. Yeah, he could really test your patience. But at the end of the day, Rohan really is the best! I've been back for two days now. Everything is different. I can't even start to explain the new wave of aloofness that's come over me. Maybe aloof isn't the right word. I'm...unsettled. That's the best I can do for you. I basically don't want to think about things. I know I will, because I already have, and come on, it's me we're talking about. Despite everything I don't want to be wondering about, all those thoughts fill my head night after night. So I said good-bye to Parker today. Needless to say, I was a mess by the end of it. I'm really going to miss him. For the first time ever, tonight, I felt truly alone. It was a scary feeling. Ick. I don't really want to say anything else right now, but I felt I should update. I need my strongface Lindsey. Love, Nish