sometimes it seems that no matter how devoted i make myself to some friendships im the one who gets the short end of the stick. Im not mentioning any in particular, it just seems like i put myself out there for everyone but no one is out there for me. And i dont mean about trivial little things, i mean bigger ones. this is where the school me and indian me relate.... main hoon na means im here, right? as in im here what are you worrying about. the title song of the movie is talking about regardless of what time of day it is, whatever you need if its big or small, im here. And like have you ever thought about how much i actually love you, im here right? and i realized im like that a bit..as in IM HERE and then i need someone liek that whos like IM here WHENEVER you need me because i really need life support...and i knwo most of you tell me that... whenever you need to talk, im here...and im not saying at all that you arent good friends, sorry if it came out that way, but all im saying is that some of this stuff i cant really express except to some people, most of whom wouldnt understand me anyways. As most or all of you know, im a very emotional person, and when i dislike...i do it skillfully with lots of contempt...but when i love, i love very compassionately.... and its no weak emotion from me. and when i feel on some days that people abuse that love, i get upset. Anyway tonight was fun....coffee bean and then max's house...those pics i stole were sooo funny! o and also good luck to parker on his AP test tomorrow... you'll do fine i know it bc you are cool like that as far as im concerned. Anyway i guess im done for now....so yeah ill talk to you all later. Nish