im in like the worst mood lately, and the only things making me smile are shahrukh's movies (my antidote for depression) and talking to sheida about them. My tad bit of happiness is that i was looking for his address for sheida and i to write to him (obsession? i know) and i stumbled across a yahoo groups thing devoted to him so we joined! Anyway, yeah me being invisible... i cant put up strong faces my entire life and im done doing it. It feels like everyone has some problem or another and i dont think anyone notices what goes on with other people, if they are having a hard time too. Last night was fun with everyone, but for me internally, it was a disaster. thats just me. I was supposed to go to parkers and work, but he wants to work tomorrow. Anyway all my time is his so i dont care when i work...when he calls, ill go. Story of my life. Anyway, i realized that i cant blame anyone for not seeing that im upset, i realized i am sorta good at hiding my emotions...not extremely good at it, but good enough. So im not blaming anyone. I liked it last year and the year before when i was always happy. This year has made me nothing but sad and upset and angry. And ive shed more tears in this year alone than in freshman and soph. year combined. The worst part is that i know why, i just cant describe it. Theres no description, its just a feeling you get. Anyway im gonna now, happy easter to everyone who celebrates easter. I think vishu is soon, so maybe my mom will let me stay home bc its a hindu (well south indian actually) holiday. Not that anyone here knows the difference but whatever. I guess in some situations, ignorance is bliss. NISHA