ok, here goes... i cannot believe the amount of crappy teachers in our school!!! IB ones that give us shitloads of HW when we are studying our asses off for the IB test!! Which is in like a week....serious stressing outness bc i havent taken a test that was this significant in a looooong while! even the SATs... you can take again...this thing...no way jose! Math is my worst subject, surprisingly, im not failing, but this test is gonna kill me! o well. and then parker came over here was telling me we were studying today...ummm ya thanks for informing me.... like basically invaded my house which i normally have no problems whatsoever with, but with so much to do, if hes comin to hang out, YAY but he never talked to me about studying today and kinda randomly appeared...and it took forever to get him out to move his car and i was getting more stressed because he seemed to not be able to grasp the concept that i need to get to work and i cannot be late...which is not hard i mean come on just move your car and let me go...so i was sooo overwhelmed on top of that aditi is like "NO PLANS TODAY because you HAVE to take some people home" so then parker calls and is like aditi's comin with me! im like wtf why do i need to plan my schedule around her if shes gonna ditch me and ride with parker? so i took shelbs and max to max's house! im so tired of arranging my schedule for everyone else so that they can go fuck it all up. Dont get me wrong, its not that i dont wanna help, i do and i can, but im not sitting here with my entire life for parker and/or aditi to mess with so if we decide something, stick to it or give me some advance notice (parker i know u dont like advance notice but for example...today is not gonna work so i cant make it just for you) and so i can re-organize and get a tiny bit of peace. And work sucked today too... there were so many obnoxious parents that i wanted to die right there in the secretary's cool chair. sucks that im the only secretary who knows what goes where and how to do my job so all the stuff that the others leave behind falls to me.... YAY for me. OH and lastly (damn right there's more) i was supposed to go to lajuanda's for a math study session (everyday until thursdays test...except saturday) and she told me its gonna be extended from 5-7 and end at 9. But i guess everyone left at like 7, so ya no studying today. Im gonna flippin fail, i know it. Ok well now that i got it all out, i can think straight. Thank god! -------------------------------------------- ok this is like 30 mins later... i talked to parker... i talked to aditi, i talked to sheida *YAY* and life is a bit better. I know i wont FAIL the math exam, and i know that the stress of work is part of why i do it....so im ok now...or at least a bit better...thats good! i need sleep so bad! o well, and i have to do some HWK but yay for berens going to disneyland tomorrow and i can do it during her class! ok im still alive, life is good (positive thinking...way to be!)