i dont know wether to not tell her or tell her, i dont know wether i want to see her ever again ever, i dont know whether i can live with out seeing her, i dont know. i dont know anything right now. im lost, now, more than i've ever been before, im scared, im angsty, im overly jumpy, and my daily facade is harder and harder to put up. i dont know why i have to be such an arse all the time, i dont know why i cant just say what im thinking. life is not about always thinking things, its about acting on things. acting on choices, acting on feelings, to stay redundant with my feelings is stupid... i've got to sort this out... This does not look good, for homestarrunner