I like things that i dont expect... i guess thats why i was fucking excited when Fiona started texting me again... maybe i thought maybe she finally wants to be friends... because i thought, im about ready to talk to her. It turns out all she wanted to do was to start getting a crush on me again... which is ... weird, she has fucking boyfriend... i told her if you freaking love him what they hell are you doing... maybe she still hasn't figured out waht she wants in a guy... or has cold feet, or fuck i dunno im not her. Fickle Fi, hehe. Ah anyway, we hung out on wednesday for awhile... it was... fun i guess, and i didnt really feel much like i wanted to hug her and kiss her and tell her i'd conquer the world for her... so maybe i've suppressed that side of me... because last night i said some pretty open shit, that i wouldnt even tell myself. i dunno what to do other than just.. be myself, and rush her into anything, help her out if she wants help... and stop texting her because talking is so much harder to do! and be open with my feelings, and what im thinking...cos everyone knows truth = hardship and lies = easy but way worse way... so anyway auckland region champs next week... and im almost fit!!! woah there! woah! who goes there!? it is i, king Arthur, son of uther pendragon!