hard talk to do but we did it, we had a good run?

puff puff pass puff puff pass, if you smokin my grass, you gotta puff puff pass

a monkey riding a pig walking down the sidewalk, turns to cross the road onto the back of a giant baby, they wander up to the bald head. the baby yawns and its bottom lip falls away and turns into a corn chip which lands in a nacho platter. all of the other nachos point and laugh while a giant hand approaches, its shadow covers them all and the nachos begin to tremble with fear, some cry, they run and try to hid under the sour cream and salsa but the hand finds one and plucks him screaming from the plate and crushes it into little pieces and lets if fall. the nacho pieces fall across the ground and cover it like snow and a celery stick skies through it and turns at the end and sends a spray of nacho snow into the air which land as a wave upon a beach, the see is blood red from the sun setting in the distance. its all set on a plane space.

my dreams have become vivid and im beginning to take control bit by bit. recurring people from dreams long past are amazing. its like a friend you havent seen in awhile. i wake up feeling excited.

i have begun study taoism from the tao te ching and attending tai chi once a fortnight. trying to get in touch with the flow! really interesting and its making a lot of sense so far. somethings aren't clear yet, but im sure with time i can find advice.

im 22. and i have done a few things. but there are many more to do. one of them has to be changing my lifestyle, drastically. perhaps only with a secure job can i start down that path. i think the opportunity to change will present it self someday soon. im sick of the way we treat the earth at the moment. i dont know how i get through most days anymore. we have become so far removed from every other animal put on this place. and we try to say oh the dolphins they are smart like us. have they ever destroyed any part of the world? no they live within it, in harmony. fuck humans. fuck it all.