I don't want to start all over and find another shoulder to lean on 'Cause yours makes me feels safe hmmmm. I'm alone. i think about how im going to feel in a week when she's actually gone. and then a month. and i dont know what it will be like. i can feel my heart beginning to break, just little bits at the moment. i guess one day it will all go. maybe in a couple of weeks. i can't actually think about it. like a try. and nothing happens i just get to a half-sad state and then.. i just get nowhere. on another note. i enrolled for masters yesterday. yay! taking mostly geochem papers which is random and probably not where i thought i'd go with geology. anyway its really applicable knowledge and could give me oppurtunities all over the world if i knock it on the head in a couple of years. dad is doing well he got a research grant from someone for half a mill so he's set for the next couple of years. mum has a boyfren!! im not sure about it, but im happy that she's moving on from Tom and that she's in a happy place again. sister is doin well. always? yeah pretty much. brother is doing good. doin as much as he needs. sister is doin. i dunno i havent seen her in ages. being a rebel probably. -- i bought some weed. im going to smoke it. people have told me its a good time, so im going to try it out. im sick of being hung over from alcohol, but i still love beer. thats the dichotomy of simon right there. good. well im going to be lonely. which will probably turn me back to writing. so we'll see how i go, i may be stuck at uni all day everyday with the intensity of masters. in the end. we will have learnt so much. i wonder how it will happen. things are getting faster. more accurate. and definitely more interesting. i heard that population will max out around 2050 and then about 2150 the earth will turn into this really awesome place. im gutted that we're in this formative stage, the learning curve. but you get the cards your dealt and make the most of it, supposedly. iran a, whats up with that shit. and north korea trying to fuck shit up. fuck it whats with everyone being reall anti... i guess it is the cards thing again right?