Ah i just want to go walking with you

climb to the top and look at EVERYTHING

_{look at it all.}

come down and fall asleep warm.

fall asleep calm.

experiences shared or experiences solo?

each is different.

together i remember the interactions and the smiles and the laughs

alone i remember the song stuck in my head, when the sun hits the water just right, how a wet shrub feels to hold on to.

can i get close to nature when im not alone?

to get absorbed and succumb to the massive is a secret passion.

to sit and look and look and really look

but i like to laugh and i like talk and i like to smile and i like to share. i guess its a balance!

a lot of things are.

i have been invited on a unique experience for february. flights paid. just bring my noggin.

i hope i can hack it. my noggin is not too impressive, well i dont think so i guess i do alright.

otherwise i wouldnt have been invited?

it would be a shame to turn it down, and un sensible. so i wont.

i will miss my birthday with my close friends and family, but it will be ok :) i will be ok.

im ok. moving in to new flat soon. im ok.

im still dwelling a lot. not in a rut, just on the levee. im fine.

ha.

just for me the words are just for me.

hard for me the words are hard for me.

but its good for me yes its good for me.

to share.

to dare.

to shrug of fear.

suuuummmmmaaaaa. what up.

nothin. you?

heaps bro, heaps.

true.

yeh.

2010. whatuppppp

big things thise year BIG THINGS.

not sure what yet but huge.

i've been skimping at work. but charging as per normal. me is guilty.

me be makin amends this month till i leave, honest sah.

promise!

promise.

i saw animal collective live. i just bought three tabs of lsd. i dont want to live without understanding what the fuck these guys are upto, it sounds so fucking fun. the same goes for half the bands i listen to i guess.

im sick of alcohol. i hate it. i love the taste of beer. so maybe ill stick to the odd beer. but its just not working out for me anymore. fuck it. fuck it.

i think i swear to much?

other people think i do. is it really that bad? what is bad anyway. whoa deep simon, real deep, like a fish bowl.

ok . bed time.

oh yeah. two friends and i rode on our bike around the richmond ranges. 370km, 9 hills, 16 hours in the saddle, four days. one tub of vaseline. haha. and only five flat tyres... best things i have ever done.

i loved it. i did. i did. it was so hard. but at the end of each day i was so happy. and sleeeeppp was sooo gooodd. i cant remember the last times i ever slept so well.

im ok. im happy now. im really going well.