back.

back at uni and back at work. back from the best month. back from fantasy.

courts is back and she wants to be my friend. i still have feelings for her. i said i can be her friend just not very often. once i have healed then we can be friends. till then im just getting fucked over.

raw deal life. raw deal. i gotta learn something here! im a good guy why is this shit on me?

i can't think. i need to, but i cant.

i need to read, i need to learn. but im not learning yet. im still drifting on. summeeeerrrrrr.

my body is eighty percent. my brain is ten percent. maybe its all the drugs i've been taking.

april is going to be dry, i will be dry for the winter. i will. april to september. promise. i promise.

five months.

i will.

im applying for a job. news once i get it.

Simon says do this.

beccca, becckkyy, beexxx, beeckkkss, beecar. beeker?

hummmm. seems to be a name that keeps affecting me. its like it was meant to be. i cant find her. i will find her, accidentally, or on purpose? both? do i want to?

haircuts!

bring it on. im a dub soldier.

i want to climb, but i dont have time. i do have time. i do. have. time.

should i tell her how i feel? if she presses me once more i will. and fuck it and see what happens.

i dont WANT her, but i do.

haaa. im sad. im crying. i cried. the flood gates opened and they havent closed. will they ever close? why am i close to tears? am i ok? i need to talk to hayden.

ho man.

shit.