Ira came across some sheep, You know? the kind that help you sleep. The sheep said 'baah' and Ira said 'Aaah!' As he fainted, and collapsed in a heap. me and Ira have poem wars in chemistry... mine was so much better, i win the poem shield! woohoo. Hung out with Fi for a while today, its gonna be ok i think. although i was a bit of an arsehole, maybe i feel like screaming at her but i dont so i just be a dick. Which is weird because im usually not much of a dick at all, infact this is the first time i can ever recall thinking up ways of annoying someone. When i was there, i think maybe i sort didnt want to, i left my headphones on, and listened to music the whole time... i didnt even shout her a drink at the dairy, and i owe her one too. maybe this makes me a callous prick... my life fantasy come true!! hah IMADICK.com i thought about what we were going to do since last wednesday when we hung out, but today... when i was actually there in the moment it wasnt the same... it was me im sure, i was fucked off about stuff... Mum ignoring me, failing chemistry, maybe i almost took it out on her. so now im free to think about next wednesday... gahhhh, friends. Japanese people love their government, New zealand people dont give a shit. Japanese people are happy, and have a lower suicide rate than NZ, NZ people are happy, but commit suicide everyday. Suicide is a such a viable option, and yet i know how many people it affects, it really hits you when the knife is at your throat. im sick of feeling empty, i want to share my life with someone. Fucking hell. Why is everyone so fucking worried about life. Why have we created a system that sets us up to fail, there is no failsafe, get rich or die trying? fuck that... Money has fucked up society... fuked up everything, fucked up Iraq, fucked up afghanistan, fucked up every place the US fucking A sees it can make a few extra bob out of. im sick of swearing, im sick of having to be obscene, sick of being nice, sick of being unable to express myself to people, because they dont understand, or dont want to understand, because waht? it complicates their fucking complicated lives. My arse, show me someone who is more fucked than those skinny arse fuckers in bangladesh... I live a life of luxury, and all i think about is a girl. Im sick of myself. Humans are doing it all wrong... There has to be a better way...the current way of thinking is a dead-end... and i have a feeling the shit is about to hit the fan, and spray all over the face of humanity... and all us mama-jama's are gonna get smashed. The day money became more important than a human life we've been doomed. The day money became more important than the earth we stand upon, we've been doomed. The day money became more important than love, we've been doomed. I am not a willing participant. but i will participate, for the ones who participate for no other reason than its all they can do right now, for the people who understand me, for the people who want to change, for the people that love. When i was young i used to say live and let live, but in this every changing world in which we live in, makes you give in and cry, say live and let die.