Stupid MSN and it's stupid maintanence. who gives a poo. So tonight was -the- night. Man. They caked on that makeup. I feel so fake, but I guess playing a fake person on the stage is good enough rationalization. I feel bad because I was -so- stressed I sort of blew scott off. I don't think his friends like me. And I felt so ugly with all that stupid powder and lipstick on my face..I wanted to kiss him but -that- would smear my makeup. STUPID. Makeup is a tool invented by Beezlebub to make my life hell. Our act got switched around because the band didn't have enough copies of our music...EEHALKFDib. I was freaking out. I nearly had a temper tantrum right backstage in front of all of everyone. Probably why they didn't like me. But our performance was fantastic. We didn't mess up ... at all! yeah everything we did was totally intentional. And they said I had an amazing voice. Yay for my amazing abilities to sing amazingly loud. And obnoxiously. Tees. Oh oh! And Scott got me a chocolate bunny! Because he remembered that I didn't get one for Easter.... I don't know if he realizes how much I appreciate him. And I don't know what I'll do without him. And he's so fantastic. I love hugging him, I love kissing him. I just like being with him. This sounds so sappy, but it's my life, my journal, so if you don't like it, don't read it. After our performance I went to the punk-ska-funk show. I got in for the last 45 minutes of the last band (which was really good IMO). I even skanked....poor everyone around me. Hees. I wore the cute jaildress I wore for Almost Broadway. OMG! And Sara was there!! <3!!!!!! Everyone asked me if I had brought Scott. I was like "man its like they love him more than me!" but I said no and that next time I would -so- bring him even though I didn't know if he'd like this kind of music. I really wish I'd been there for Chucks... I wish I could have been there for the whole thing! Oh my poo! So tired. Why won't MSN work?! stupid "routine maintenance." What a load of losers. Ugh my stupid face and the stupid make up. My daddy said I did good.