Saturday, 2:53 p.m.   Poo! I'm so mad at myself. It was the perfect opportunity but did I take it? no. I thought about it for effing ever but I'm such a wimp. I just want to sleep. yeah. I know. Sleep, cry...sleep some more...cry...then sleep again. we're playing questions right now so maybe I'll ask him ... ? I wish I weren't such a wimp. Can't I just communicate? my daddy says to not marry anyone significantly stupider than I am. And I wonder if I'd ever meet someone who I'd love enough to live with forever? 20 + years like my mommy and daddy still love each other. And never get divorced. And have sex together even when you're 75. EW. hahahaa. I mowed the lawn today for the first time. It was scary and I don't think I liked it very much. But now I get to go to the movies. Emily called me right before I started mowing and asked me if I wanted to go. So I'm meeting her and whoever else is going at 6:30 and I'm the coolest because we're going to the movies on a saturday night. w00t! So even though I'm angry I'm kinda excited and kinda happy. First time all week, practically. Because Mandy and I went to the Farmer's market and on a picnic with scott and a loaf of jalepeno bread and it was good even though i ate too much and now have an upset stomach kind of. I went to Scott's house after I did my errands for my mommy. And he hadn't showered or shaved or anything so he showered and shaved and mandy came and we sat on his new furniture and read the magazines on the coffee table. yay for friends! :o loser Katherine got off before I could say goodbye. She's my friend! yay! Oh, more happiness: I read taylor's diary and he was talking about not smoking and drinking anymore! yay!!!!!!! I am -so- happy for him now. Smoking -is- really bad. Bad for you, yes, but it is just really gross. Drinking...well ... I guess if you drink too much then it is bad. I don't drink much anymore at all, especially since I got my driver's license. ------- one more thing. I truly hate drugs.