Saturday, 9:53 a.m.   I get it! I know why if I'm not doing anything my parents don't make me do chores now. I used to think it was so unfair that everytime I wanted to do something they shoved all these chores down my throat, but now I think I get it...they know I can finish them fast and I'm motivated or something when I have things to do. Ever since I got my license I've been out almost every weekend. It's awesome how liberating a car is. Plus I kinda like doing things for my parents. Makes me feel useful when so often I feel useless. I teeter through school doing everything last minute and BSing my way through all my papers...There's only one paper I have ever done that I enjoyed and actually spent time researching and I almost got lynched for it. Anyway, the view outside my window is so beautiful today. The bottles lined up on the window sill are so beautiful today. The lava lamp that hasn't been turned on in a year or so is so beautiful..in fact I think I'll turn it on. Everything is so beautiful today. I feel so pretty... Monday through Thursday I didn't feel beautiful at all, and I tried so hard not to care, but even when I'm not out to impress anyone I'm still trying.. On my defense, though, think about it, who likes not feeling beautiful? Or handsome, hott, pretty, whatever. Who enjoys feeling unattractive at all? ------------ Kudos to those who truly, truly don't care and don't go around complaining about it, moaning and pissing on about how ugly they are...I hate that kind of person. I used to be that kind of person, fishing for compliments instead of letting them come to me on their own. You can make someone's day a lot better by telling them something nice about themself before they have a chance to complain. Unfortunately in our hypocritical, egotistic society that frowns on egoism; we never really are prepared for what to say in return. Usually we say "Oh, no..." or an awkward thank you...are we so unused to compliments that we get all tight and scared when we're given one? I resolve to hug the next person who compliments me (in person) and give them a compliment back. unless they smell, in which case I will refrain from the hugging.