Wednesday, 8:43 p.m.   International Disappointment Dear Diary, I went to the International Film Festival today. I should have gone in the morning by myself. To see 20:30:40. I gave in to Metallica: Some Kind of Monster, though. Some documentary film. Documenting Metallica. I kind of like Metal music, but I don't know. It got so boring. I was so bored. I was with Nik. And he paid for my ticket. Which really pissed me off. And we walked the whole way there. It is quite the walk. We were almost late and we left an hour and a half before the show started. So I guess I got some good excersize out of it? But I kind of was hoping that it would be funnier. And I couldn't tell if I was supposed to like the characters or not. I mean, they were like, wow normal people. So what? So are we all. Pff. I was disappointed. Plus, 140 minutes of metal music just...I don't know. Sucks? Yeah. And Nik didn't get ahold of Simon today. So no one knows any details. But...I do have his msn address. Teehehehehe. Ahem. I'm gonna get on tomorrow morning and ask him if I can go. I have it all planned out. He's -supposed- to get on in the mornings. I hope he does..Ahem! Man but he is so cute... (not as cute as aaron. sorry man. haha!) And I might get to go to the movies with him...and a couple of other boys (caleb is also quite tasty!), but -him. Petty school-girl crush. Leave me be. Don't bother me until you've proven to be real. Although from my experience, a lot of the times my crushes like me back. Levi, for example. For a few days anyway. And CJ! That was a shock to me. And Scott! And Craig! Craig was a shock too. And I had a crush on James a long time ago and he had a crush on me earlier this year. A little late, but still. James is a cutie pie. Ooh! And Dan! I'm not sure if it counts, but my sexy Pirate-Ninja hybrid, too. Hmm. So maybe I have a chance with Simon? And what am I afraid of? Rejection? It's not like we're best friends already so it wouldn't ruin any friendships... If Nik makes any more moves on me I'm gonna get upset though. I'm sorry this is such a shallow entry. Actually, no I'm not. Whatever. :) Night! ----------------- 9:17 p.m. Post Script: Crap. I lost my train of thought. ----------------- 9:18 p.m. P.P.S: And we make such a cute couple, don't you think? ----------------- 9:19 p.m. P.P.P.S: Ice cream here sucks. And I am in the mood for poppy, cheesy, love romantic music. And also I miss you so very badly, Scott. Like I would give almost anything to have you at my side. Maybe it's the crappy ice cream and cheesy love songs talking, but I can't stand being without you. It's not fair. You better be taking good care of my heart. ----------------- 9:21 p.m. Post post post post script: I found my train of thought! I just wanted to say how dizzy I was after the movie. Staring up at the screen and hearing the loud music really messed up my equilibrium and I was stumbling out of the movie theatre as though I was drunk. Such a funny sensation. I got mad though. I like being steady unless I've purposely made myself dizzy. I did take a bus home. After about a half-hour wait at the bus stop. Daah! On the way to the stop I would get off at, I heard a screech and a crash. I looked out the window and there were three cars . Not moving. Not huge damage, but there was a really bad collision. Head On. No one seemed hurt though, which was good. It was still really scary. Cars scare me to no end. They really are 3,000-6,000+ pound weapons. So much damage. So much potential.