11:50 late Friday Morning I turned on this this blink 182 album and was immedeately smacked in the face with not memories of times with Caleb, but the first weeks of being in New Zealand. Fiji LAX. It's all so surreal. I was sad but in wonderment. I was in love with Christchurch. Everything was new, everything was amazing, Everything was so different. The hotel house we lived in for a week. Sitting by the heater in the middle of a coastal winter when i just left the blistering heat of a desert summer. The first few days of school that were brutal, but after a week i was in love with everything. and i knew it would kill me to leave. mm. Maybe it is different from how i remember it. Because memories fade. But it was surreal.