5:55 Thursday Evening But what would I know? I thought it would be better than this. I didn't think I'd changed so much. Of course I don't blame myself. Instead, I blame the city I live in. I was so much happier in New Zealand. Even though he is here right now, our relationship is a bit on the sucky side and it's my fault. I'm depressed not because I'm not with Caleb, but because I'm here instead of in NZ. It's good to figure things about about yourself. Maybe I can use this knowledge to be less of a bitch. hahahaha. yeah. right.