Seeing things the way they are Paints a cruel picture of the world Want to find an alternate reality I don't feel that I'm needed here. Don't want to be where the hurtful is can't stand feeling this way Blackness closes over my heart, Trying to over emotion. Pushing down depression Fighting loneliness and sad, Alone and scared Waiting for the night to fall Tense and terrified Hoping the knife doesn't strike. Tears streak down my cheeks Screaming in silent fury. Avoiding them Sidestepping the topic in conversation Keep on pretending I'm alright. If I keep up the act long enough maybe I'll fool everyone, I hope I'll even fool myself. Kicking aside emotion Apathy tries to become me.