Nathan is back in town and I'm scared to see him again. sad? yes... I like him but at the same time i feel very nervous and... queasy? Like when you see a guy that you think might be a rapist? well, that's how i kinda feel... I'm not scared that he will doing anything to me but i'm scared that he might try. i'm also afraid of getting my heart broken again... I'll i have left of my heart is some powder and if he brakes that bottle that holds the powder, then i wil have nothing left. i'm to scared to ask for help, but i think i might need some. ciao