well the break-up with jess went smooth. thank-you for those who helped me. 2morrow is the swimming sports....who knows if i will do any good. i don't like swimming all that much....don't get me wrong i am a good swimmer but i just don't like it that much. every one think i do just because i like sport. i like it but not with the passion that i have for other sports. i think that i am more of a Aths kind of man. i just like running better than swimming. before i found sit diary i wrote stuff like this on a piece of paper and just put it under my bed, the only problem with that is that no one was ever going to see it. and before the paper i used to tell everything to my mate Anita. but then we stopped talking for a while....we have started again now. but now with sit diary people can look over my thoughts and feelings and help me with their comments. keep it safe....... -bullboy